Tuesday, September 16, 2008

flesh wound

2nd today, but i wanted to share while it was fresh on my mind

so, you have a deep deep wound.
first, you have to clean it out. this hurts as much, if not more, than the original wound. you really have to clean, to make sure there is no infection
then you put your band-aid on it. i use the cowboy ones i saw in Wilmington.
the temptation for me is to slap the cowboy band-aid on that sucker and then ignore it. not look at it until it is totally healed. just pretend it isn't there. that will hurt less.
but you can't
you have to re-clean it from time to time. to really insure there is no infection. you have to take off the band-aid, pour some more peroxide on it, wash it, and put on a fresh band-aid. it hurts like heeeeeeeeeelllllllll. you wince. you bite your lip. if you are a wimp, you might even shed a tear. but you know that you have to do it. if you don't, it could become infected. and that will hurt a lot more. maybe not now, but down the road.
you might have to repeat this process a few times.
but the end result is a clean, healed wound. and an awesome scar.

so many times i want to ignore it. the band-aid will work. throw on a little neosporin and hope for the best. sometimes that is enough. but for big wounds, that ends with a painful infection that takes so much longer to heal.

the Lord made me clean a wound yesterday. even taking the band-aid off hurt. the rest hurt more. i had ignored it for a while. and i was a wimp and cried the whole time. but today, it was so much better. 
i already know i am going to have to re-clean it a few more times. and i am preparing for it.
the Lord has poured so much grace out already. often i picture the pouring out of grace to be like a watering can. but lately, if feel like i am in a pool of it. able to go underwater and be completely submerged.
how kind to have a father that doesn't let our wounds become infected. He knows that in the long run, this is going to help it heal faster. i know that because of this, further down the road it will be so much easier. otherwise, it would sneak up on me and hurt a million times worse. and i will end up with an awesome scar i can look at and be reminded of His faithfulness

My greatest need has been taken care of. What else matters? Not a little flesh wound, that is for sure.

Who has believed what he has heard from us?
And to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?
For he grew up before him like a young plant,
and like a root out of dry ground;
he had no form or majesty that we should look at him,
and no beauty that we should desire him. He was despised and rejected by men;
a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief;
and as one from whom men hide their faces
he was despised, and we esteemed him not.

 Surely he has borne our griefs
and carried our sorrows;
yet we esteemed him stricken,
smitten by God, and afflicted.
But he was wounded for our transgressions;
he was crushed for our iniquities;
upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace,
and with his stripes we are healed.
 All we like sheep have gone astray;
we have turned—every one—to his own way;
and the Lord has laid on him
the iniquity of us all.

He was oppressed, and he was afflicted,
yet he opened not his mouth;
like a lamb that is led to the slaughter,
and like a sheep that before its shearers is silent,
so he opened not his mouth. By oppression and judgment he was taken away;
and as for his generation, who considered
that he was cut off out of the land of the living,
stricken for the transgression of my people?
And they made his grave with the wicked
and with a rich man in his death,
although he had done no violence,
and there was no deceit in his mouth.

Yet it was the will of the Lord to crush him;
he has put him to grief;
when his soul makes an offering for guilt,
he shall see his offspring; he shall prolong his days;
the will of the Lord shall prosper in his hand.
Out of the anguish of his soul he shall see and be satisfied;
by his knowledge shall the righteous one, my servant,
make many to be accounted righteous,
and he shall bear their iniquities.
Therefore I will divide him a portion with the many,
and he shall divide the spoil with the strong,
because he poured out his soul to death
and was numbered with the transgressors;
yet he bore the sin of many,
and makes intercession for the transgressors.


Anne said...

A very good analogy sweet friend. I'm sorry for the painful cleaning, but I know it will help you heal! I love you:)

Steven, Erin, Anna, and Brooke said...

Thank you for sharing. So many people have terrible things happen to them and don't know how to walk through it and feel all alone. It's good to hear other people's wisdom and discoveries.