standing on this mountain top
looking just how far we've come
knowing that for ever step
you were with us
kneeling on this battle ground
seeing just how much you've done
knowing every victory was your power in us
Scars and struggles on the way
but with joy our hearts can say
yes our hearts can say...
never once did we ever walk alone.
never once did you leave us on our own.
You are faithful
GOD you are faithful!
for the past 3 weeks i've been tearing up matt's album 10,000 Reasons and hillsong united's new album Zion
there is a moment in this song when Matt loudly sings "Never once...no we never walk alone"
it's my favorite part of the song. It's like he's declaring it. Either in reflection, or a reminder while in the midst.
Often Psalms is for reviewing...in my own heart. For looking back. For checking the review mirror and taking a deep breath, relieved that it's over. And for a few brief moments you get to catch your breath. reading about David's troubles and battles, and God's faithfulness is for me like looking back, saying "yup. that just happened. moving on" But lately, it's been more for refreshment and reminders DURING.
sometimes i don't notice when a trial is over. It might take a few days. Sometimes a few weeks. and I look back and think "oh wow. Yea. that's done. phew"
Then there are the ones where the moment it's done, you feel it. The second it's over, this flood of relief, peace and comfort rushes over you.
these past few weeks have been hard. Not just on me. On several friends. Walking through a trial hand in hand with other's is one of the best sources of encouragement. Your hearts knit together. You know exactly what the other one is struggling with. You can speak into each other's lives in beautiful ways. Sometimes it's just the comfort of knowing that though you can't give each other answers, you can share honestly what you are feeling in that moment, and get a "yup. me too" back. Then you know you aren't crazy. There is something so soothing about that. it doesn't fix the problem. it doesn't make it go away. but you know that someone else is walking through this too.
The Lord has been sweet. The verses, encouragement, love and verses that had been thrown back and forth have brought us all to a stunning awareness of grace in our own lives. Have you ever cried with someone over text? it's pretty crazy.
All this to say, I can't wait for the moment when we are kneeling on the battle ground. Seeing how much God has done. Knowing that it's over. That he has the victory. And we can catch our breath.
How lovely is your dwelling place,
O LORD of hosts!
My soul longs, yes, faints
for the courts of the LORD;
my heart and flesh sing for joy
to the living God.
Even the sparrow finds a home,
and the swallow a nest for herself,
where she may lay her young,
at your altars, O LORD of hosts,
my King and my God.
Blessed are those who dwell in your house,
ever singing your praise! Selah
Blessed are those whose strength is in you,
in whose heart are the highways to Zion.
As they go through the Valley of Baca
they make it a place of springs;
the early rain also covers it with pools.
They go from strength to strength;
each one appears before God in Zion.
O LORD God of hosts, hear my prayer;
give ear, O God of Jacob! Selah
Behold our shield, O God;
look on the face of your anointed!
For a day in your courts is better
than a thousand elsewhere.
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
than dwell in the tents of wickedness.
For the LORD God is a sun and shield;
the LORD bestows favor and honor.
No good thing does he withhold
from those who walk uprightly.
O LORD of hosts,
blessed is the one who trusts in you!
(Psalm 84 ESV)