Monday, January 31, 2011

anxious

Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice.
Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand;
do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus Phil 4: 4-7



I am often anxious. I get so frustrated at myself for how anxious I get about stuff. stupid stuff. little stuff. petty stuff.
for example: right now money is tight for me. This pay period is one where everything falls the same week. And the one before, my check was a good deal less due to some unpaid time off i had to take. The crazy thing is that i know that in 2 weeks, i won't even remember this. though today i have that heavy feeling in the pit of my stomach that feels a little like bad Chinese food, though my thoughts keep going to "how am i going to make that work" or "where can i scrimp on that", though today i am trying not to be panicky... in 2 weeks I will be fine, looking back and seeing the outcome. Seeing that things weren't nearly as bad as i thought. Seeing that the Lord provided once again, in an amazing and dazzling, and sometimes simple way.
There are other things i get anxious about. Other things that rule my heart in the moment.
My other issue, is that I try to manipulate the situation to fix the outcome on my own. My friend Jessica called me out on that today. Instead of trusting the Lord, working at keeping my heart in check and hearing him and seeing him work, I think "i can fix this" and roll up my sleeves. Sometimes it works. Sometimes it doesn't. But why do i think that I can do better than he can? Why do i think that I can make things happen better, faster, more efficiently that the creator of the freakin' universe can? Who the crap am i???

The other day Noel Piper (John's wife) quoted her husband on twitter. She said "If I were as confident in God before he works as I am afterward, I'd have an anxiety free life"

RIGHT???
dang.

my friend Christopher once said "anxiety is mild atheism."
RIGHT?

Lastly, Matthew Henry speaks on that passage in Philippians:

There is a care of diligence which is our duty, and agrees with a wise forecast and due concern; but there is a care of fear and distrust, which is sin and folly, and only perplexes and distracts the mind. As a remedy against perplexing care, constant prayer is recommended. Not only stated times for prayer, but in every thing by prayer. We must join thanksgivings with prayers and supplications; not only seek supplies of good, but own the mercies we have received. God needs not to be told our wants or desires; he knows them better than we do; but he will have us show that we value the mercy, and feel our dependence on him. The peace of God, the comfortable sense of being reconciled to God, and having a part in his favour, and the hope of the heavenly blessedness, are a greater good than can be fully expressed. This peace will keep our hearts and minds through Christ Jesus; it will keep us from sinning under troubles, and from sinking under them; keep us calm and with inward satisfaction.

The Lord is good. All the time. I have nothing to fear. Even if it all goes bad today, I have eternity with my Savior to look forward to. My greatest need has been met. What do I have to be anxious about?

Thursday, January 27, 2011


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first off,
T-minus 5 months and some days till my CA trip! I am so excited! My list of people to see is getting longer each day. I will get to see some friends that I have not seen in years... like my friend Jeremy and his brand new bride! (their wedding is the first one on the top) And my dear Jmo and her new little family . Also, some friends i have seen a little more rencently... like Butner, Chris, Jared and Marissa! As well as TONS of family, new baby cousins and new friends. So very excited.

second off (is that a term? Now it is) I read this the other night in Mornings and Evenings

Jesus will not let his people forget his love. If all the love they have enjoyed should be forgotten, he will visit them with fresh love. “Do you forget my cross?” says he, “I will cause you to remember it; for at my table I will manifest myself anew to you. Do you forget what I did for you in the council-chamber of eternity? I will remind you of it, for you shall need a counsellor, and shall find me ready at your call.” Mothers do not let their children forget them. If the boy has gone to Australia, and does not write home, his mother writes—“Has John forgotten his mother?” Then there comes back a sweet epistle, which proves that the gentle reminder was not in vain. So is it with Jesus, he says to us, “Remember me,” and our response is, “We will remember thy love.” We will remember thy love and its matchless history. It is ancient as the glory which thou hadst with the Father before the world was. We remember, O Jesus, thine eternal love when thou didst become our Surety, and espouse us as thy betrothed. We remember the love which suggested the sacrifice of thyself, the love which, until the fulness of time, mused over that sacrifice, and long for the hour whereof in the volume of the book it was written of thee, “Lo, I come.” We remember thy love, O Jesus as it was manifest to us in thy holy life, from the manger of Bethlehem to the garden of Gethsemane. We track thee from the cradle to the grave—for every word and deed of thine was love—and we rejoice in thy love, which death did not exhaust; thy love which shone resplendent in thy resurrection. We remember that burning fire of love which will never let thee hold thy peace until thy chosen ones be all safely housed, until Zion be glorified, and Jerusalem settled on her everlasting foundations of light and love in heaven.



lastly, here are some pretty/awesome/funny/absurd things that are making me pretty darn happy about Thursday.

Will Ferrell will be on the Office for 4 episodes. Duuude




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Hot air ballooons over Paris
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Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Confessions

1) tonight I wanted to re-read Persuasion, my favorite Jane Austin book. I jumped straight to chapter 23 so I could read the letter Capt Wentworth wrote. Totally worth it.

2) I had a bagel and cream cheese for dinner

3) the past 4 nights I have been reading from a stack of books in my bed as I fall asleep. I have left them in my bed and fallen asleep surrounded by them. The stack has been getting larger each night. And I have less and less sleeping space.

before the collection grew


4) I am posting this from my bed. I paused my reading to confess all this. True story.



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Monday, January 24, 2011

monday isn't funday

a few things

1) an awkward co-worker (the female version of Michael Scott from the Office) just learned what "OMG" means. And uses it. Way too much. And not even in the correct context. It is like Michael Scott as an awkward 13 year old girl.



i decided to put this one up too... because i was laughing so hard at all of the Office moments


2) I am starving.

3) I have had this song stuck in my head for a full 24 hours

Thursday, January 20, 2011

awesome friendship fact

so Shay is my best fried. Du-doy.
Today i was remembering an interview i had to tag along on, interviewing 2 elderly christian women with amazing testimonies.
you can read about them here and here

Well, i always forget one amazing detail about the 2nd interview with the woman who escaped from Nazi's.
A while after hearing it i was telling Shaynah the story. She had mentioned before that for school she had met and heard the story of a woman who had escaped from the Nazi's. NBD. She teaches History... makes sense.
So i am telling her the story of Freida. When I get to the part about her hanging out in the house with her friend, and the soldiers coming, Shaynah's eyes got huge. "wait... did they hide in the dumb-waiter?" "uh, yeah". at this point, i am assuming i had already told her the story and she is doing mock enthusiasm.
Nope
"was she an opera singer or something?"
"yeah"
she got really excited. Apparently, the woman that Shaynah heard was the friend of Frieda that was with her that night! So she heard the whole story from the friend's point of view... even the surprise ending. They were best friends, and unbeknownst to us, we met them separately, heard their stories and... well... that's all.
But it was one of our awesome friendship facts. I just made that term up. But I might do a series of "awesome friendship facts" with different friends. I like that idea. I just changed the title of this blog to reflect that.

Monday, January 17, 2011

waiting

my friend megan posted this quote on her blog. She also had wise words with it.

waiting on God isn’t about the suspension of meaning and purpose.


it’s part of the meaning and purpose that God has brought into your life.

waiting on God isn’t to be viewed as an obstruction in the way of the plan.

waiting is an essential part of the plan.

for the child of God,

waiting isn’t simply about what the child will receive at the end of his wait.

no, waiting is much more purposeful, efficient, and practical.

waiting is fundamentally about what we will become as we wait.

God is using the wait to do in and through me exactly what He has promised.

through the wait He is changing me.

by means of the wait he is altering the fabric of my thoughts and desires.

through the wait He is causing me to see and experience new things

about Him and His kingdom.

and all of this sharpens me,

enabling me to be a more useful tool in his redemptive hands.”

_paul david tripp

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megan went on to say:
 
i’ve been thinking about this topic of waiting alot recently.


a dear friend sent me this quote and it summarizes so well what’s being revealed.

waiting is not wasted or lost time.

it is an integral part of His purposes in the grand scheme of my life.

i can choose to embrace it. press into Him.

“see and experience new things about Him + His kingdom”.

or i can chafe against it. grow impatient. lament.



what is “waiting” for you?

unanswered prayers. unchanging circumstances. indefinite uncertainty.

or maybe life just isn’t the way you thought it would be at this stage in the game.

and you are sitting around hoping for improvement.

have you considered this season. right now. is an essential part of the plan. His plan.

and though it may look different than you expected.

though it be painful.

though it be long.

He is with you. and He is working.

you will be a different person as a result of this season.

tested. tried. stronger.

by His grace, more deeply rooted in faith.

more in love with His word.

more desperate + grateful for His presence.

in the cries for relief, don’t lose sight of the now.

and all that He has to do in and through you.



we rejoice in our sufferings,

knowing that suffering produces endurance,

and endurance produces character,

and character produces hope,

and hope does not put us to shame,

because God’s love has been poured into our hearts

through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.

_romans 5.3-5

monday

Oh Monday. am i right?
ok, so 2 things

1) please check out this website http://www.adoptrinah.com/
 the Gallo's are an amazing couple. i have known Carissa for a few years, and got to meet her husband Andrew somewhat recently. They have such a heart for the Lord, and others. I think you will really enjoy their story. Please consider giving to help them out. Adoptions are quite expensive. AND if you give $50 or more, you will get a print by Matt Wahl as a thank you. But even if you can't give, please pray for them. This is an awesome journey

2) i had a cold about a month ago. It was pretty bad. I could not breathe at all. So I bought some nasal spray that was AWESOME. I lil' spritz here and there, and i could breathe within seconds. PTL. Well, the other day i realized i was still using it. Because i still needed it. I would get congested and have to get a little spray. That seemed odd. So i read the back and said it had a warning to only use it for 3 days. Whoops. more like 3 weeks. So yesterday I went cold turkey. I. Cannot. Breathe. At. All. one nostril stays ok for most of the time. The other one, no dice. It is completly closed off. I didn't really sleep last night b/c they were both stuffed up. I am hoping my "rehab" is short. But it has been fun saying all of the cliche additction lines to people.

and a few pictures of my week
(we were "snowed in" Monday and Tuesday of last week. Thankfully, my french press kept me sane. I just drank coffee, watched movies, listened to Bob Dylan and... um... that is about it.)

the house after "storm of 2011". This was before the ice

my "office" on Monday and Tuesday. complete with records, coffee, snacks and nail polish


while looking through pics on my phone, i noticed that this week i took a lot of my feet. so here they are.


my evening attire. ugly slippers from my Snooki costume, my snuggie and leggings that you can't see

my feet at a movie. Shay and I went to see The Fighter. Amazing.

my feet at church. i sat in the back on the floor so my labored breathing and sniffling wouldn't cause others to gag.


Wednesday, January 12, 2011

informative

"To my future husband"
i found this funny site from a friend
i am not going to post the link, because i do not want to be held responsible for some of the more risque ones.
here are a few gems that i love

These are all notes to the author's future husband. Some requests. Some informative. Some demands.



Legacy Naming: I don’t care how awesome your uncle Bart is, we’re not naming our kid anything that rhymes with “Fart.”

The State of Our Home If we’re not having anyone over, my laundry is probably gonna be all over the floor. You’re more than welcome to join me.



I’m going to hold you to the same standards I hold myself to and I never wipe boogers on the shower wall. EVER.


Paul Rudd Be him.

Backseat Driving Let’s not make critical comments about traffic decisions or obvious observations about what’s going on on the road unless our death is actually imminent. Whoever’s not driving can just sit back and find something dope for us to listen to on the iPod.


Your Go-to Sandwich Don’t worry, boy. I got that junk memorized.

Let’s agree We won’t spring new nicknames on each other in public. Especially not when we’re stunting with friends. Crap like that should be workshopped behind closed doors until we’re both ready and willing to unleash it on the world.

When In Doubt ask, “What would Jay-Z and Beyonce do?”


Here is where I keep all of my amazing snack foods. You can share as long as you contribute.

trouble

so, airbnb.com...
heard of it?
be careful. it's addicting. and makes it hard to be content with staying home.
pretty much, if you have seen the movie The Holiday, it is the same concept. You rent a house from someone in another city. sometimes you are just renting a room, and they are home (awwwwkward)
sometimes they are out of town and you stay in the whole house.
Sometimes they juat own another house/flat that you can use.
and they have awesome deals

such as this... in Prague http://www.airbnb.com/rooms/42514?price=85
that's right. $85 a night.

or this one in Croatia http://www.airbnb.com/rooms/29347?price=90

paris http://www.airbnb.com/rooms/25448?price=141

london http://www.airbnb.com/rooms/9293?price=100

aaaaaand this little number in florence... http://www.airbnb.com/rooms/46855?price=162
and this happy little place in Dublin http://www.airbnb.com/rooms/46062?price=278

and this place in Kenya. THEY HAVE A MONKEY
http://www.airbnb.com/rooms/55351?price=92
so, i want to travel. Today. Right now. Lets go. Who is in?

Saturday, January 8, 2011

22. Make Saturday "phone date day" call out of town friends. Stop relying on text and facebook and blogs.


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Friday, January 7, 2011

mediator

John Piper put this on the DG blog. So good.



One of the last sweet gifts from our Father while we were on leave was his reminder not to make his Son more of a Mediator than he is. Jesus said:


In that day you will ask in my name, and I do not say to you that I will ask the Father on your behalf; for the Father himself loves you. (John 16:26–27)

“I do not say that I will ask the Father on your behalf.” In other words, I’m not going to insert myself between you and the Father, as though you can’t go to him directly. Why? “Because the Father himself loves you.”

This is astonishing. Jesus is warning us not to think of God Almighty as unwilling to receive us directly into his presence. By “directly” I mean what Jesus meant when he said, “I am not going to take your requests to God for you. You may take them directly. He loves you. He wants you to come. He is not angry at you.”

It is absolutely true that no sinful human being has any access to the Father except through Jesus’ blood (Hebrews 10:19–20). He intercedes for us now (Romans 8:34; Hebrews 7:25). He is our advocate with the Father now (1 John 2:1). He is our High Priest before the throne of God now (Hebrews 4:15–16). He said, “No one comes to the Father except through me” (John 14:6).

Yes. But Jesus is protecting us from taking his intercession too far. “I do not say to you that I will ask the Father on your behalf; for the Father himself loves you.” He is there. He is providing an ever-present, ever-living witness to the removal of the Father’s wrath from us.

But he is not there to talk for us, or to keep us at a distance from the Father, or to suggest that the Father’s heart is guarded toward us or disinclined to us—hence the words, “Because the Father himself loves you.”

So, come. Come boldly (Hebrews 4:16). Come expectantly. Come expecting a smile. Come trembling with joy, not dread.

Jesus is saying, “I have made a way to God. Now I am not going to get in the way.” Come.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

more goals

12. keep the inside of my car clean
13. read more. Lots more
14. write thank you notes and send bday cards
15. write more handwritten notes period
16. cook more. a lot more.
17. take a trip to CA and visit everyone i know and love.
18. go to bed BEFORE midnight on week nights
19. not buy anything new unless i am willing to give away something old
20. pray more. a lot more.
21. make a list of specific people/things to pray about each week. and be faithful to it

Monday, January 3, 2011

2010


I am seeing a lot of people do a "year in review" post.
i felt left out, so here is mine.
the trouble is... narrowing down pictures is not a specialty of mine. whoops. this is the whittled down version too.

lets start with just after midnight on 1/1/10.
JANUARY:

it will start with me and Shay at a party at my house on Alden Glen.




Shay and Michael were engaged, we had the week off, life was grand.
we spent days off working on wedding crafts. Hurrah.





i also met my favorite American Idol contestant of all time, Jason Castro. i pointed to him to help you know who i was talking about.


FEBRUARY
Liz and Michael got married! Oh happy day!


which meant that my favorite Aussie came home for a bit! Yay Sarah!

Shay and I celebrated our favorite stinkers b-day! Yay Abi and Alathea!




and i helped throw a surprise party for my dear friend Ashley


on valentines day, Thomas and Adam took me to my 2 favorite places: Big Daddys and Amelies. Thomas saw something frightening.


i was one lucky girl that night.
MARCH
Tom Shoes had their annual "Barefoot to work" day. You don't wear shoes to bring awareness of all the kids who don't have shoes. I was still dreaming of owning my own pair of Toms at that point. Sigh.


Ashley came to visit me and Erin on the north side of town. I took them to Toast and visited Davidson





and i had some really bad hair days. i had to show this one.



Last Hurrah dates this with this girl...

and Pairs Pictionary for lunch at work



APRIL
it happened! She got murried!
chillin' at Mawmaw's... in her glasses. NBD (oh, i started saying "NBD in 2010... it means No Big Deal)



Shaynah got us Pioneer Woman's cookbook for bridesmaid gifts. I had already fallen in love with her blog. Kristie and mom and I went to go meet her. SO AWESOME! She was super sweet and funny and adorable.
I was happy to learn that she felt the same way about me as felt about her...



Happiest of happys... this happened!!! :)



pretty, lovely spring days with spring naps


and we made a new friend, Ian


and this happened.... :) (the picture looks weird. It looks fantastic in person. In my opinion.)




dates with this crazy cutie face



and i announced what i wanted for my b-day to Anne... a nephew. She pointed out how impossible it would be, since there was no way she could control that, but she would do her best.

MAY
May is always one of my favorite month's b/c i get to go to Next.
But first... my phone rang in May. It was Anne singing Happy Birthday. Since my b-day is in Sept, i was more than a little confused. Until i realized what she was telling me. She was pregnant. Now, she only had to make it a baby boy, and we would be set.
Next was awesome b/c i got to hang out with my sweet friend Jenny. We had a blast and i used her pregnancy to get us in the front of lines.


got to hang out with Matt. We both ate sandwiches. and we both like the Smith's and records.


and got to see Jeff, who makes me laugh a lot. and he laughs at me. it works well.

JUNE
i helped plan the youth banquet again. I got the bright idea of making tons of origami. it took FOREVER... but i got so good, i could do it with my eyes closed.



I also found out that one of my favorite bands was coming to town... Passion Pit! Same night as the youth banquet. so i snuck out early adn we to the show with a bunch of friends. It was the happiest concert! we had a blast!


lots of Sunday's at Pops in the Park...

and little Ava Jean was born... i got to be at the house with Kristie the night they brought her home. It was quite sweet


my old roomie Hannah got married to J Reeves. This was sweet because i had a front row seat to the blossoming of their relationship. Lots of long talks with Hannah about Jonathan, seeing her affection grow, and then being there this happy day!




I got a records player. This was the first record i bought. Little did i know what i was getting into...

yoforia opened. My life would not be the same


JULY
Shaynah's annual 4th of July/ Birthday party was downsized. just her besties on a boat! It was so much fun!
then 4th of July cookout at her and Michael's and fireworks uptown.
B-day girl!
World Cup fever hit INSP

ch-ch-changes...i packed up and left the Alden Glen house. we had a good 5 year run... but it was on to new things

AUGUST

so i moved to South Charlotte and in with this cutie face... Ashley and i had become friends at work and we are having a blast living together, with our other roomie Dawn. and I love the south side. I am minutes from Shaynah and Michael, my work commute is a fraction of what it used to be... life is grand.



My other best friend got married. I was honored to be in Buffy's (Bethany) wedding in Raleigh




one of my favorite guys... Danny


me and my 3 best friends. I am overwhelmingly blessed to have these 3 in my life. Like whoa!
the greek festival is a big deal in charlotte. amazing food and... well, thats it.
photo bomb'd
she was super excited




when i moved in, Ashley decided to become a vegan for a while. Less than a month later, we went to Big Daddy's to celebrate the end of her veganism.



SEPTEMBER
my annual b-day trip! Well, we go down to Charleston for more than my b-day. But still...
we LOVE folly beach. such a cute town



my AMAZING b-day cake

the aftermath



there was a BIG issue with the beach this year.
follow the link to Shaynah's blog to tell the story...

the girls working on dinner...


birthday beach day





back story: for a while, Adam called me "Angel face". one day, in a text, he misspelled angel and put "angle". So he started calling me Angle Face. He ordered me a gift for my b-day, and this is how it was addressed



Charleston, round 2: Ashley and Ian had never been, so we took a day trip.


carriage ride was the best idea ever
OCTOBER
my friend Erin Fede needed to make a short film and asked if she could use our house. I also recruited some extra's that you might recognize
Ashley went to Europe and brought back these expensive, fancy french macaroons. they tasted like poop.



we had some parties in the fall. NBD


my "baby sister" Jeni got married! Such a sweet, happy day!

I. Saw. Bob. Dylan.
yeah, it was life changing. He is one of my all time favorites. and i saw him in the flesh, "singing" all of my favorites. (he more speak-sings. But still)

my friend Blake and I got tickets to see Vampire Weekend in Raleigh. Shaynah and Michael decided to go to the state fair, also in Raleigh. we decided to combine the 2 trips into one, amazing, magical day. the 4 of us made a commitment to try all the amazing fair food. SUCESS!
Blake and a friend Oreo



me and a fried snickers

I have no pics of the concert, but it was AMAZING! I fell in love with Beach House that day. (they opened. listen to them. you will fall in love)
Every year Blake and his friends throw an insane costume party. Shay, Michael and I decided to go as Jersey Shore. I was Snooki, she was J-Woww and Michael was Vinny. We were a hit!

me and the boys...

NOVEMBER

my sweet friend Bethany (another one) got married in MD. Fun weekend trip up there to see my pals

it was also Liz's b-day, so we made sure to celebrate her between receptions
my friend Matt took me to an incredible record store up MD. It was massive, and this was the first thing i found. :)
long overdue friend date to Zada Janes...


I started cross stitching. i made a bunch of christmas gifts... this one was for Kristie


and this was for Shaynah (side note: i began to read Harry Potter late in the summer. i finished all 7 books in 4 weeks. I wanted to be ready to see the movie. it was amazing)

DECEMBER

Ashley and I made this one for Blake. He loves Tom Selleck and looks a lot like him. It seemed quite fitting. I have never seen him speechless before. we were quite proud.



i found this hat and fell in love. It now belongs to me.


Remember when i talked about Anne and my b-day present? Well, in August she found out she was having a boy. Which means, on December 14th, i got my belated b-day presesnt... my lil' Sam.



more records. since June, i have bought/received 52 records. Some mint, some used, all wonderful. I am quite proud of my collection and can't wait to see it grow more and more.

Shaynah, Kristie and I decided to have our best friend Christmas at Amelies. Kristie and i had pow-wowed about Shay's gifts. She wanted to get her Pioneer Woman's cookbook, since we both had it already, and i was planning on pre-ordering her the new PW book. KR was jealous about that. She wanted it too. What she didn't know, is i was getting her the book as well. What i didn't know, was that Shaynah ALSO was getting me the book. It was a very Pioneer Woman Christmas for us.


I GOT MY TOMS! They came in on Christmas eve! Not only are they suepr cute, super comfy, but a child somewhere in the world now also has a pair of shoes! WOO HOO

CHRISTMAS!

Charlotte had it's first white Christmas in like 10,000 years. Or 60-something years. Lots of years.


my pretty city

my favorite NYE tradition: all you can eat sushi lunch with Shaynah, Jared and company. 3rd year in a row.

NYE we decided to do something a little different... a wine tasting! SO MUCH FUN

cigars after midnight

and we will end where we started... me and my best friend ringing in the new year.
so much changed this year. Some expected, some surprising...
my 2 best friends got married
my friendships with others grew and grew
new friends
the Lord gave me more grace than i could ever have imagined
i moved
and much more
here is to 2011. I have a happy feeling it will be the best year yet!