Friday, December 21, 2012

secret playlist

do you have one?
i used to use spotify, where you could listen to some music "off the record" so other's couldn't see what you were listening to.
Now i have rdio, which does not offer that.
I always feel super lame when i'm listening to something humiliatingly teen-tastic and then see a friend log into rdio. They are able to see that at that moment, i'm listening to Justin Bieber. I used to try to switch to something else fast.
but then i noticed something amazing... rdio has a fun feature that shows you who else that you know has listened to something you are listening to by showing their picture under the album.

those are my friends...and they listened to the same guilty pleasure music that I listen to.

so, right now, here is what is on my secret playlist that isn't a secret at all

1) Call Me Maybe by Carly Rae Jepsen- i don't care if it was the "song of the summer". to me it is the song of the fall, winter, spring, 2012-2015. I love this song.

2) Dancing on My Own by Robyn-  this is my jaaaaaaaam. This is what I listen to in my room, dancing. on my own (see what I did there?) there is a scene from the HBO show girls when the main girl, Hannah, just found out that her ex-boyfriend is gay, and is at home alone thinking about it, when her roommate shows up (f-bomb alert)...and they do exact same thing i do when i hear it.

3) It Will Rain by Bruno Mars- I don't know why I love this song. Maybe because it's a sad break-up song. Maybe because every woman wants to be told that a guy needs morphine if she ever leaves.

4) What Makes You Beautiful by One Direction- Shut up.

5) Call Your Girlfriend by Robyn- she's on the list twice. That's a big deal. This song is terrible, but it's SO GOOD. as in, the message is terrible. But I can't not dance to it. I am moving a bit right now. Her music video is crazy weird. But one of the guys at SNL decided to recreate it. And it's hilarious. 

6) Boyfriend by Justin Bieber- Duh

7) Give Your Heart a Break by Demi Levato- I don't know guys. I just love this jam. I gave this CD to my 14 year old sister last Christmas. And I kinda want to steal it.

8) I Knew You Were Trouble by Taylor Swift- You know you like this song. I don't even need to explain this one.

9) Halo by Beyonce- We've already talked about her amazing-ness. This song IS. THE. JAM. The clapping in the beginning. The fake-out fade-out. Her voice. The words. I listen to it at work with my headphones and GIVE IT MY ALL. I've been caught a few times, but i do not care. THIS SONG IS SO GOOD. Know what, it's not even on my guilty pleasure playlist. It's on my life soundtrack playlist. I listen to this song on repeat. a LOT. Like, already 3 times today.

10) Bad Girls by MIA- another jam. I picture myself walking in slow-mo when this is on. Wind blowing my hair back. A cigarette hanging out of my mouth. cars exploding behind me. dark eyeliner, messy hair...right? You see it, don't you? Or at least riding a bike like Mindy Kaling in the pilot of her show Mindy Project. This is another one that I can have on repeat.

11) Where Have You Been by Rihanna- This song is crazy good. When the chorus starts, i just want to shoot off confetti cannons. I feel like this is the ultimate dance party song.

12) Countdown by Beyonce- nothing needs to be said. I already said it. She is the best at everything. (fun fact...she was tote preggs in this video)

and LAST but certainly not least...the song that I picture in the background of everything that happens in my life...

13) Anything Can Happen by Ellie Goulding- this has "if my life was a movie" written all over it. Close your eyes and listen. Can't you see it? I feel like a confetti cannon would be fiitting in this one too. I think I just need to get a confetti cannon. I feel like I would use it a lot. This is another song I shamelessly play on repeat. Because I can.

so, play your secret/guilty pleasure playlist proudly. All your friends are probably listening to the same thing. 
what is on your list?

oh hai

hey guys.
remember me?
Yeeeeeea. sorry 'bout that.
I've been busy. and then not busy. and then busy again.
I will catch you up later
here is the short version:
laid off suddenly
flew to chicago the next morning
fell in love with the city
flew to MD to say bye to some friends moving away
came home to an interview at Billy Graham
got the job
love the job

that's about it

anyway...sorry i suck.
i will throw in some pics and stuff later.
Just wanted you to know that I'm alive.
and you're great.

Monday, October 8, 2012

in 3 days

i will be in chi-town

and i'll be singing only chicago-themed music.
like all of these

and of course... by the band Chicago

Monday, October 1, 2012

Linda's daughter

if you saw my mom, you'd immediately make a comment about how much we look alike.
one of my friends told me that before he knew my name, he mentally referred to me as "the girl that looks just like her mom"
we are short. we have the exact same build. I have her eyes and dimples.

Personality wise, we could not be more different. I am much more laid back that my mom. I don't really get angry. at all. She has a bit of the Irish temper. But I will burst into tears much easier than she does. You can imagine what the combo of the temper and my tears looked like during my teen years. Yikes.

Personality wise, I am more like my dad.
But I think most like my mom's younger sister, Julie. She and I have the same sense of humor. We are both sarcastic. And often cross the line with a joke. And often get scolded by Grandma. In the past when my family would get together, there was always a point where we would all be laughing, and you'd hear Grandma say "Juuuuuuuuulie!". Yet, she would always be still laughing.
A few months ago, we were all together in my other aunt's kitchen. Among the laughing you'd hear "Kendrraaaaaaaaaaa!" just as often as the "julies!"
side note: Grandma is just as bad as us. Sometimes worse. We get it from her. But there is no one to scold her, so she gets away with it.

But again, I am Linda's daugther. I have her love for chocolate, old movies, reading, classical music and art.

Mom has this amazing art history book that she kept from school. I used to flip through it all the time.
I haven't been to an art museum with mom since i was a little kid. But i know that we have the same habit of taking far too long in them.

Mom introduced me to my favorite painting.
It's called Arnolfini Portrait by Jan van Eyck.

It's currently hanging in the National Gallery in London. So now i guess I have to go to London.

Also, I am flying to Chicago to see Aunt Julie in 10 days.
She is where I not only got my sarcasm, but my love of good coffee.
And we are going to drink all of the good coffee.
And make jokes without being scolded by Grandma. It's going to be the best.

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

I've always dreamed of growing up to be Amy Poehler

"I've always dreamed of growing up to be Amy Poehler".
you know who said that?
and Amy Poehler.
I love her. I really do. I feel like we are real life friends. She is the funniest woman on earth.

did you know that this was totally her idea?

yea. it was one of the funniest ideas in all of award show history. brilliant. she did something else awesome this year too

though Amy didn't win the Emmy, she totally won the Emmys with that move.
She also said this:
"As you navigate through the rest of your life, be open to collaboration. Other people and other people's ideas are often better than your own. Find a group of people who challenge and inspire you, spend a lot of time with them, and it will change your life."

such a good quote.
my new life goal is to get her and her husband Will Arnett back together. I love him too. I felt like my real friends broke up. I thought i was going to cry

Tuesday, September 18, 2012


that was the noise i just made.
this small-time blogger just got published (posted? featured? name-dropped?) on designsponge! BAH
anyway, if you have ever thought about visiting Charlotte, let this help you!

please leave comments on there, and spread the word!

biggest thanks in the whole world to Jessica Paul who took the awesome photos!

Thursday, September 13, 2012

in my ears

i've been thinking about music a lot this week
i think there are a few reasons

1) i got the most amazing pair of headphones for my birthday. i can't even explain how they have changed the way music from my iphone/computer/record player sounds. this sounds quite dramatic, but i'm not kidding.

2) The Voice is back on. man i love that show. it's my new American Idol. Not because of Adam Levine. (that's a lie. it's 90% because of his pretty face)

3) I got some new music for my bday.

anyway, I started thinking about music. and some music i am madly in love with right now. and i wanted to share it with both of you. (i assume 2 people are reading this post). I'm going to include tons of links. Mainly so you can listen, and also so you can buy mp3's.

Elton John- when most people think of Elton, they think of current Elton. Or Candle in the Wind. That's not my Elton. My Elton is the version that you find in his self titled album and on Tumbleweed Connection. (i'm ashamed to say i didn't know about that one until the movie Elizabethtown.) The songs on there are incredible. Some of them even have a bit of a folk-y feel. Dare I say, even southern. Those albums are 2 of my go-to's when I'm home alone. I blare them.
some of my favorite songs of his are "I need you to turn to" "Border Song" "My Father's Gun" and "Where to now St Peter"

Today I've been listening to Dave Van Ronk. One of my friend's said "he's got an awesome smoker's voice". it's true. Bob Dylan ripped off one of his songs. Well, his version of "House of the Rising Sun". It's a really funny story.
Some of my favorites of his are "Gambler's Blues", "He was a friend of mine" and "My Baby's So Sweet"

Cold Specks is someone i fell in love with back in the spring. I usually listen to her twice a week at work. She just always seems to be the perfect fit. There is something surprising about her music. I can't put my finger on it. My favorite songs are "Blank Maps" and "Winter Solstice". you can watch a live performance of a few songs that is amazing.

Odetta  currently has a huge bit of my heart when it comes to music. A friend introduced me to her music while we were in a record store a couple of years ago. All he said is "she was one of Bob Dylan's biggest influences". Sold. Her music is very similar to old spirituals. I wore her record out. I really did. Earlier today a friend and I were talking about her and I said "I just want to sit at her feet, have her brush my hair and sing to me. That sounds very...'The Help'...i don't mean it that way". I can't pick favorites of hers. I just can't. But she did an album of Dylan songs that blew me away. So those are what I'll include. "Blowin in the Wind" and "Mr. Tambourine Man"

Donny Hathaway is like Stevie Wonder and Jon Legend combined. He is perfect 70's soul with a hint of Motown. I could listen to him for hours. I do actually.
my favorite Donny songs (or versions of songs that he did) are "A Song For You" (seriously, makes my heart melt) and "I'll Love You More Than You'll Ever Know"

so that is it. tons of links. tons of good music. most old, a little new. go bananas!
what are you listening to?

Monday, September 10, 2012

thirty wONEderful

ashley came up with that.
pretty catchy, eh?

31 has been pretty great so far.
i had to work, which was a first in like 4 years.
but in a way it's kinda fun. everyone seems to like you better on your birthday, am i right? i am.

Ashley gave me my gift at lunch. i already colored 1 picture
ryan gosling coloring book from Ashley
 co-worker Jessica sent me this email
Ryan Gosling from Jessica
 And Dan did a #dandrawthis for me. a never nude birthday unicorn

my birthday night was spent watching Aiden. I arrived, taking over for his grandma, and found treats from shaynah. and he was pretty perfect

my awesome funfetti cake from Shay
I received this birthday surprise from a certain Jenny James in Alexandria!

it led to a few texting convos with her and Aly, trying to figure out how to use it. I think i've got the hang out of it now. and it's awesome.

i also celebrated with my first trip to our new whole foods and ordered a pretzel bread sandwich. it was amazing. but in my eyes, anything with pretzel bread is the best. they should start saying "best thing since sliced pretzel bread" instead of sliced bread. i might start doing that.

friday night was girls night. we went to hear a band (meh) and eat pizza...and right when i was about to call it a night...we went to karaoke. here's the thing... i don't sing. but i went. and i watched. and i was in awe
sarah, lissie and misty singing "i've got friends in low places"

misty dedicating "alone" by heart to me. it included a microphone swing (it flew off the cord) and a knee slide.
Ashley and I laughed, cheered, and left with Ashley saying "man that was awesome. But we aren't going back for a looooong time." i replied "And I am never singing, even when we do come back!" *remember these quotes*

the next day was my bday party! YAY
shay and kristie did such an awesome job with these! and ashley was the perfect hostess! 

this is the only picture i took during the entire party. amanda sitting on the floor and dan in a chair. that's it
my party was a blasty blast. so many sweet, wonderful friends, spoiling me, feeding me, and giving me beer. pretty perfect.
towards the end of the night, we were retelling the story of karaoke. people laughed. our friend Heather chimed in "aw man... i want to go" see where this is going right? If not, go back up and re-read the quotes from me and ashley. cool? ok. lets continue
about 20 minutes later, 4 people leave, headed back to the bar, ashley and i talk it over, and decided that yes, we are going back. 2 nights in a row. and we bring amanda and our friend cody. who is a man. hanging out with 7 girls.

Cody singing 4 non blonds "Whats going on"
the bouncer guy found out it was my bday party "you should sing!" "um no. i don't do that."

cut to 30 minutes and 1 gin and tonic later
Heather, me and Lissie "singing"
Heather and I pow-wowed. We both know all of hte words to Salt N Peppa's "Whatta Man". so, we agreed that we would go up...together. but, since we don't sing...we needed someone to be En Vogue. Lissie handled that part.

I am proud to say i didn't need to look at the prompter once. it's my jam

one final bday note...
this happened and made my day

in case you don't know...that is deangelo williams (#34) and Jonathan Stewart (#28) of the panthers. they are known as Double Trouble. And they wished med a happy bday. NBD.

I lied. LAST last thing.
this is what my bday balloons looked like yesterday morning. how sad is that?

Thursday, September 6, 2012

awesome giveaway

how about this giveaway!
you can win a dress, every month...for a year. 12 dresses. that's pretty rad
click here to sign up

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

NY Times

the Times has been running some pieces on Charlotte for the DNC.

the other day, i was working on a project (more on that later) with some friends, and we bumped into a guy we know. He does photography for the NY Times.
Annnywaaaay... he was taking pictures of Charlotte eataries for an upcoming article.
Long story short... look (my friend Dan is making the most hilarious face. Smiling at...nothing)

read the full article here

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

fastest 350 days ever

my birthday is in 15 days.
wasn't it just my birthday? wasn't i just in Vegas? wasn't i just lamenting and struggling with turning 30, still single, and trying to rejoice in where the Lord had me?

i mentioned back around new years that 2011 was kind of a crappy year. some of it continued into this year. i'm not saying 30 was a crappy year.
it was a hard year, but a good year. i am a different woman than i was this time last year, having a staring contest with 30, afraid that if i blinked, it would pounce. I thought maybe if i kept my eye on it, or willed it to back off, it would go away. or at least i could magically change the circumstances surrounding it.

now here i am today. same job. same living situation (which i love). same martial status.
but it's expanded. it's like my life was a balloon that got a few more puffs of air. from far away it doesn't look that different. but it is

new people in my life. new babies in my life. new friendships. deeper friendships. new purposes, goals and even joys.

31 doesn't look so bad. i'm not nearly as scared of it as i was 30. i'm still not ideally where i'd like to be. but that is ok. I am where the Lord has me today. and it looks pretty great. if i just focused on my ideal, i'd be pretty sad all the time.

anyway, i did make a birthday wish list.
here we go

1) trip to Croatia, Italy...anywhere over there. i've been spending way too much time on airbnb
2) this
Image of thunder in our hearts tote in fluro pink


4) a new tattoo
5) a charlie and nell boyfriend doll
6) chanel nail polish
7) this perfect tshirt
8) a baby elephant in a raincoat

9) a case of cookie butter

Friday, August 17, 2012

3 go to's

today i was reading about a fun movie club over on joanna's blog. she talked about a group of girls that have a movie club watching their dad's favorite movies.
i want to start watching/reading/listening to stuff i normally don't.
so i am going to ask around. please answer this question if you read here, even if they are typical answers
what are your 3 go-to
these are the ones that you have read/watched/listened to billions of times. but you are always up for doing it again.
these would be mine
  1. The Little Prince. i adore this book. it's such a sweet children's story. and my favorite quote comes from it. the fox tells the prince a secret which is "it is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye"
  2. Persuasion. it's stupid how much i love this book. it's my favorite Jane Austin book. it's just excellent. for once she has a character that isn't whiny, but sweet and noble.
  3. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. the final book is my favorite. but i loved this one so much. I read it the fastest. Like, i destroyed it.
1.Rocky. Doy. We've been over this. but i just love it so much. it' so good. always so good

2.Annie Hall. quite cliche, but i love it. the scene with the lobsters is my favorite moment

3. Sixteen Candles. to this day the last scene in that movie gives me butterflies "me?" "yea you!"

*honorable mention Center Stage. the acting is horrible. but it's awesome. so awesome.
    1. Heartbreaker by Ryan Adams. this was his first solo album. this was the album that made me fall in love with him forever

    2. Desire by Bob Dylan. I love so many of his albums, but this one is the best to have on at night while puttering around the house

    3. Best of Billie Holiday. You don't really get real albums for older artists like that. buy my best of is amazing. you can just listen to it on repeat for days. and pretend to slow dance with Jason Segel or Ryan Gosling or such while it's playing.
    now... you tell me yours

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

august here and there

i've been looking forward to august since june. i knew i would be returning to Maryland, visiting with some of my favorite people. they hold a big chunk of my heart right now. it ended up with aly & kyle posting a countdown on instagram, different picture each day.
but some stuff happened before i went.

first off...i went to Fan Fest at BOA stadium. i got to watch my boys practice. just a note: practice isn't nearly as exciting as a game. but it was free, and we sat so close, we could hear their conversations. we could also hear all the crazy fans screaming to Cam as he ran around afterwords signing autographs.
that woman in the pink backpack yelled "YEA, YOU  BETTER COME OVER HERE AND SIGN THIS SINCE YOU ARE GOING TO BE MY HUSBAND ONE DAY. THAT'S RIGHT. I'M YOUR WIFE AND BABY MOMMA!". it was mildly awkward for everyone around her. She didn't sound very "haha, this is funny" about it. I was worried she might stab him with something hidden in the backpack.

then something very sad happened. Dawn moved out. She was moving while i was going to be gone, so we had a 5 minute farewell before I hit the road. this was the last time i saw her. EVER
then to Maryland...

Monday, July 30, 2012

his majesty at the olympics

one of my co-worker friends has been taking online classes at Liberty University.
she is working on a project about King David (she explained it to me, but i was not paying any attention), and needed to find some picture for her project of King David. She was looking through old paintings, even the sculpture of him.
I told her i had the perfect picture, and promptly emailed her this

yikes. am i right ladies? that man was made for suits. i have a feeling that you can put him in any suit, no matter how big or small, what fabric, color or matter if it's the ugliest suit in the world, and it will perfectly fit him and look amazing. geeeeeez. i watched that clip on repeat. he was all "oh hey guyz. Yea. I'm David Beckham. Yea, I am wearing the sh*t out of this suit. Yea, i'm not only on a boat, i am driving the hell out of it. yeah. there are fireworks going off behind me. Whatever. NBD."

anyway, i had a funny thought. what if you re-read the story of King David, and pictured it being David Beckham. That would be hilarious. but always in a suit. always.
Like, King David dancing in front of the Ark of the an armani suit...

know who else looks good in suit?

joseph gordon-levitt.

Friday, July 27, 2012

because we have to

this made my heart burst with joy

Ryan Kalil of the Panthers purchased a full page ad in the Observer. This is what it said:

Monday, July 23, 2012


i've dropped the ball on this. and i apologize.

here are some current giveaways on other blogs you can enter. some are really really awesome!

amazing light giveaway at bleubird

a photography course on beautiful mess (ends on 7/24, so hurry!)

a whole lot of goodies on this one, at tiny twig

Friday, July 20, 2012

these guys...

going to see Batman soon. not yet. but soon. In the mean time, i will be looking at this a lot.

Monday, July 16, 2012

fix warped records

As you have learned, I love buying/collecting/listening to records.
Sometimes I'll find really cheap records at thrift stores. It can be a risk, since often they are in not-so-hot shape. So sometimes you get home and find that they are really warped. That is what happened to my Madonna True Blue album that I bought for $1
Recently I bought 2 great albums, but left them in the car on accident for 2 days. The 100 + degree heat warped them to the max. I put them on the record player and the needle jumped off them at one point like so bad, it looks like a car from a movie high-speed car chase in San Francisco. whoops.

Since these were all records that I really wanted, I was pretty devastated. From what I had heard from others, a warped record is pretty much done-zo.
But I didn't accept that fate. I looked online, talked to the owner of one record store, emailed a so called "expert" and they all pretty much said the same thing...there IS a way you can TRY to fix them. Done and done. I was on this.

This process sounds pretty easy. And it is! It just takes some time, and you have to keep an eye on things. And it's best done in the summer heat. I did these early in the afternoon, so I was able to work on my tan while taking care of it.
Also, I did a test run. I bought the same Madonna album somewhere else, so it wouldn't be the end of the world if the fix didn't work to that one. (and i ended up destroying it in the process...more on that later)

Here is what you need:
-2 cleans sheets of glass (bigger than the record)
-something to evenly distribute weight (i used a pot of water, but you can use a can of paint, or anything else that is close to the size of the record)
-heat (i used the sun. it's pretty fool-proof)

I got the sheets of glass from my step-dad. They were pretty dirty, and since I didn't want to scratch my records, I went ahead and washed them...with pantene. our dish soap went missing for about 3 hours yesterday, them magically re-appeared. so i found a travel bottle of pantene and used the hose outside. my records smell lovely.


the patients
 ok, so once everything was ready to go, I sandwiched my 1st record (do them 1 at a time! Otherwise it won't work) between the 2 pieces of glass and set it in the sun on concrete. Putting them in the grass, or a towel or anything that isn't totally flat won't work.
Let it sit there for about 5 minutes, heating up. Then, I put the big pot of water on top, to help flatten it

After about 10 minutes, i flipped it and repeated the process. If the record is in really bad shape, I'd move the pot around to the different problem areas. And leave it out longer. After at least 10 minutes on both sides, take off the pot and check it (still sandwiched between the glass. It is still really soft at this point). If it looks done, move on to the next one. If not, leave it out a bit longer.
Easiest way to tell if it is done: If the glass looks evenly sandwiched. If it is higher on one side, then the record is still warped.

Important note here:

don't leave any of the records just sitting in the sun before or after the process without the glass. I did that to my Madonna one, after all the work of fixing it. Before my (and my roommate...she was a witness) very eyes, it warped so bad it looked like waves. It was melting right there.
So after you finish each one, rush them inside (or leave them in the glass as you take them in), put them in the sleeve, and put something heavy on them to help them keep the shape as they cool. I actually just put mine on the shelf with the others, because they are crammed in there pretty tight, and that is going to help keep it flat.

Once they are totally cooled, go ahead and try them out on the record player. Mine were so much better. Not quite 100%, but much better than they were before. They didn't warble like most warped records do. You could still see they weren't totally flat, but they did great.

If the record isn't quite there yet, try again, maybe leaving them outside a little longer, or putting a larger, heavier object on top of the glass. I even stepped on it a few times, just to help out.

Also...just a warning: if you have a bad record, there is a moment that might be slightly terrifying. You need to brace yourself...
For the first record, i put the pot on right away for the first one, instead of letting it heat up first.  A few minutes in...when the record was hot enough that it started to get soft, I heard a loud cracking noise. I thought the glass or the record had broken. Nope. Pretty much, that is the sound of the record flattening really fast. really really fast and the 2 sheets of glass bumping each other. So it meant it was working, but it was pretty scary at first.

Anyway, I am going to work on perfecting the process. But at this point, i rescued 2 records and might make the 3rd a bowl (also easy to do)
In the meantime, I hope this helps!

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

3 things

3, totally unrelated things

1) today i've been listening to classical music all morning. my mom used to play it all the time when i was younger, and i didn't listen to it at all in my 20s... i think as a rebellion from hearing it so much prior. but today, it makes my heart happy

2) there is a fire station at the end of my street. sometimes they are called out late at night, and drive by our house. normally, they wait to turn on the sirens when they reach the stop sign and pull out on the main road (which is only 3 houses down from us...) but on a rare occasion they come flying down the street with the sirens wailing. at 3am. i used to get really annoyed. i would sit up in a huff, thinking "that is SO rude. one morning i am going to go down there and complain..." FOR WHAT? That they are racing to SAVE SOME ONE'S LIFE!??!!? And as a result, i might miss out on 5 minutes of SLEEP?  WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??? I then realize i am a horrible person and go back to bed.

3) last night i was in my car, on the way to a friends house, and one of my favorite Ryan Adams songs came on. I had my windows up, and sang along. But not just a little. I sang along all of the way. Like, I was picturing myself sitting on a stool at the Visulite Theater, sitting next to Ryan. Here is the thing...Ryan doesn't come to Charlotte. Ever. But I have a scenario totally worked out in my head (i think about this often. Far more than i would like to admit) So what will happen is, I will befriend him (most likely he will come into my record store one day) we will get talking, i will give him a hard time about never playing in Charlotte, he will finally agree, but only for my friends. So i will invite all my friends to a private show, but his other condition is that i sing along with him. I will say no, because I can't sing. But he will continue to encourage me. So i'll do it. Well, after that one song, we have so much fun and it's such a hit, that he tells me to stay on the stage. And that is why i am sitting on a stool next to him.
Anyway, so there i was, stopped at the light on Park Rd and Fairview, singing along to our duet, putting my all into it (i mean, you guys were all at the show. I had to give you my everything). I am pretty sure i looked like this girl.
All of a sudden, out of the corner of my eye i see movement. I ignore it, and keep dueting. The movement gets a little more intense. I finally look over and realize a co-worker, that i don't know that well is waving and signaling for me to roll down my window. I can't ignore this. I do it and she cheerfully says "Hey! I didn't know we where neighbors!" PTL she didn't mention my performance. But she saw it. All of it. The best of it. I guess I'll have to invite her to the show now.
(this is the song Ryan and I were singing)

Monday, July 9, 2012


have you heard of John Mulaney? He is hilarious.
In his stand up, he has a joke about doing nothing.
He talks about how when people ask you what you did over the weekend, and you realize you didn't do anything, your face lights up, like it was the most glorious thing.
That is how i felt about yesterday.

On Saturday i went to a baby shower, and then a wedding. Both were lovely.
The baby shower was to celebrate Joe and Jeanie's 4th baby.
Now, i see the judgement in your eyes "who has a shower for their 4th kid! Geeeez! Greedy much??" and I would be right there with you. EXCEPT, this is their first boy. Everything baby related in their house looks like it was sprayed down with pepto bismal and unicorn saliva (it's purple and pink and glittery and smells like bubble gum). This poor kid wouldn't stand a chance. So we bombarded her with green and blue. Sweet Jeanie didn't know what to do with all that stuff. It was hilarious watching her face each time she opened another plaid shirt or blue onesie. She looked so confused and perplexed.

then it was wedding time. my fake little sister for the past all-of-the-years got married. It was a train station wedding (3rd one we've been to at this awesome place) and it was a blasty-blast.
I love this venue, because it reminds me of Shining Time Station. I half expect a mini-Ringo Starr to walk up to me each time I'm there.

it got cray later in the night when we all started dancing. The outside waiting-platform-concrete-thing is normally where the dancing/drinks/food is served. It's crazy pretty, but it was hot as everything ever out there. Honestly, imagine 30+ people in a small huddle, jumping and dancing around in 90 degree heat. I have never seen so much sweat in my life. We were disgusting. I was repulsed by us all. But it was crazy fun.

anyway, after all that, I had big plans to do nothing yesterday. AAANNND it was magical.
I got home, put on comfy clothes, climbed into bed and caught up on Housewives of NJ. Then I started watching the show Louie. Then I got up and hung out with the roomies for the first time in 2 weeks and we all watched a special on Tom and Katie. Then I went to Chipotle. Then I got back in bed and read and watched Arrested Development. Then I went to sleep.
It was one of the best days of my life. That's a lie. But it was amazing.
AND it was the first night i have slept in my bed in over 2 weeks. We had to spend a lot of quality time together, since we had been apart so long. that is my excuse for lying in my bed for 5 hours straight yesterday afternoon.

Here is John Mulaney talking about doing nothing

here is another one of his bits. I just love this guy. He and I share an obsession affection for Law and Order SVU

Thursday, July 5, 2012

2nd monday

i know everyone is already whining about it, but having yesterday off has confused the crap out of me.
Tuesday felt like a Friday, which was AWESOME. But today feels like Monday. the 2nd one this week. That seems just mean. At least tomorrow is real Friday. But right now, all i can focus on is how confusing Monday/Thursday is. I have no idea what the crap is happening. I have been worthless at work.
don't get me wrong... i XOXO to the max 4th of July. It's my favorite day of the year. Mainly because of the fireworks. and last night's fireworks were totally worth it

QUESTION: why can't we have fireworks at least once a month? I don't understand this. They are magical and pretty and bring everyone together. I need to move to Disneyland where they happen DAILY.

SIDE NOTE: guys...what if i lived in Disneyland. For real, picture it. I'd totally live in Sleeping Beauty's castle. But secretly. Like Natalie Portman in that movie where she lived in Walmart. I'd live there, and then ride on Pirates of the Caribbean all night. Not the whole ride though. Just the lagoon part. Because it's romantic. I'd invite him to join me. Or him. Or maybe him. Then we would have a late dinner of churros and hot dogs on the Peter Pan ride at the part where you fly over London. Also romantic. Guys...I'm totally moving into DisneyLand. THIS COULD WORK.

Anyway, my future best friend, Beyonce, is helping me get through Monday/Thursday. I am not even mildly ashamed of how much I love her. Not just her music, but her perfect cinnamon colored face, her glorious hair, and her cherub baby and bad-a$$ husband. I just love Bey. That is what I will call her when we are BFFs. Me and Bey, sipping expensive champs on Jay's boat. Blue Ivy will call me Auntie Ki-ki (she will have trouble with "kenni") and they will de-throne Oprah as her god-mother, and I will wear that crown. Jay-Z will encourage her to buy me gifts since I am such a wonderful friend to them. He will write a song about me that will top the charts. It's going to be amazing.

she is perfection.

Monday, July 2, 2012

HBD shay

yesterday was too crazy to post this. So we are a day late.

Shaynah wore sweatpants for most of Next one year, because she was my wing-man
She is pretty crazy for Christian Bale. And we are pretty sure it's not accidental that all of the Batman movies are released near her b-day
She introduced me to diet cherry limeades from sonic, and my life has never been the same
She will stand up to people when I am too chicken, and i'll just stand behind her and nod...or cry
(ex: our flight coming home from Boston when they said i might be bumped. She refused to board the plane when they told her to, and said "you are putting her on the flight. I'm not getting on if you don't. I'm not leaving her here!!!!")
She also will speak hilariously bluntly to strangers (ex: drunk girl passed out when her flight was boarding. Shay pushed her and say "Ay better get up. Now. Get up. WAKE UP!" while everyone around us laughed)
She once crip walked out of the Shea's house after care group
She refuses to allow me live in denial about Anderson Cooper. But that is to protect my heart.
She shared Justin Timberlake with me.
She insisted on wearing a specific lip-gloss on her wedding day, because Kristie gave it to her (meanwhile, Kristie stood behind her with a quivering lip)
She came to Vegas for my 30th birthday while in her first trimester of pregnancy, rallied the entire time, and bought my drinks since she couldn't enjoy them.
She once cried at Zada Janes while encouraging me. She cried first. It was a big moment. :)
She taught me the phrase "busted like a hot dog w/out mustard"
She introduced me to House Wives of NJ
She didn't make fun of me for liking the Jonas Brothers or Twilight when i confessed it to her. She then admitted she loved them also.
She saw Kelly Clarkson with me.
She saw Shooter Jennings with me, and was almost crushed by a drunk guy
She called me from a swim meet when she knew i was on a business trip and going to see a crush. She text me during the time i was with said crush to make sure i was ok.
She taught me everything i know about USA swimming
She made me a Carolina basketball fan
She makes me laugh to the point that i cry or pee my pants
She can turn any situation into a Friends reference
and she laughs at "you'r pesto is the best-o)
She married a guy that would become one of my other best friends
She is the mother of the most amazing baby in the world, who also happens to be the guy in my life

HAPPY 30th 28th Birthday SHAYNAH!
I am so grateful for you.

you're the Jay-Z to my Kanye, the Rachel to my Monica, the Oprah to my Gayle, the Ben Affleck to my Matt on and so on

I love you!

too old for this shhhhh

have you ever been so tired you have an eye twitch?
i have one right now. it's driving me up the wall. each time it twitches, i want to crush something. my poor water bottle has been taking the punishment for my twitchy eye. sorry water bottle. it's not your fault.

this weekend was amazing. busy as crap, but amazing.
first off, this is Josie and she is my friend for the week.

sweet girl. she looks like a stuffed animal

we're cruisin' for dudes

Saturday was a happy day. A few girls and i threw a birthday party for our lovely Kristie. Since Kristie gets super excited about little things, we didn't think she could handle the overload of knowing everything that was going to happen. So all she knew was when and where to show up. We took care of the rest.

it looked waaaay better once it got dark
We all pitched in to buy Kristie an iphone (giftcard). this picture was a little after we gave it to her. you can spot her sitting at the end of the table still grinning ear to ear
moments before we all jumped inot hte pool for the rest of the night

Friday, June 29, 2012

is she a pilot?

i have no place doing a tribute post to Nora Ephron here. I am not a screen writer. Or a writer at all. I can only name 4 of her movies.  If i had passed her on a crowded street, i'd have no idea.
but man i love her movies.
and i think some of the lines she wrote were some of the best in the history of film.
here are a few of my favorite

from You've Got Mail:
Tom Hanks- "I could never be with someone who likes Joni Mitchell. 'It's clouds illusions I recall/I really don't know clouds at all.' What does that mean? Is she a pilot? Is she taking flying lessons? It must be a metaphor for something but I don't know what it is"

also from You've Got Mail:
(ashley and i quoted this yesterday)

Tom: "Don't cry, Shopgirl. Don't cry."

Meg: "I wanted it to be you. I wanted it to be you so badly."

Also delivered by Tom Hanks, but from Sleepless in Seattle, when he is telling the radio show host about his (now dead) wife.:
"Well, how long is your program? Well, it was a million tiny little things that, when you added them all up, they just meant we were supposed to be together. And I knew it. And I knew it the very first time I touched her. It was like coming home, only to no home I'd ever known. I was just taking her hand to help her out of a car and I knew. It was like ... magic."

and my ALL TIME FAVORITE. Man, i love this movie.
This is Billy Crystal's big speech at the end of When Harry Met Sally

"I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible."

i really hate you harry. i hate you.

no one can write them like Nora. She will be missed.

Thursday, June 28, 2012

i dare you not to cry

there are a few go-to's to get my to instantly cry

1) if you ask me to describe the last scene of Homeward Bound. I am done for. I start to tear up pretty quickly. Watching it does the trick too. Right when Peter says "he was too old. It was too far"... ooooh man.

2) this video. Holy moly.

3) listening to Fantine's death from Les Mis.

4) if i think about ever meeting Dolly Parton. I honestly tear up.

so if we are ever in a public setting, and you want to see me tear up or bawl like a baby (it's a crap shoot on which one you will get) try one of those.

Friday, June 22, 2012

luv is a verb

my family is in Mexico this week to serve at Rancho 3M.
they asked me to stay at the house with their crazy dog, George.
i haven't slept in that house since... 2004?
we moved there in 1993. so it's home.
but being there has transported me back to the 90s.
i've been posting pictures on instagram (ksands) of little details that are making me nostalgic.
it's been fun

mom and step-dad's wedding day. our first family photo
me kickin' it with mom's bike
view from the front door. i miss that view
our first house project. handprints in the hallway.

but suddenly I am in highschool again.
i woke up this morning, got ready in my old bathroom, listened to some of my favorite 90's music on the ride to work, got to work and passed a mirror. at that point i realized i had unknowingly reverted to my hairstyle of choice in my late teens. i hadn't done my hair like this in probably 10-13 years.
guys...17 year old Kendra has possessed my body. be scared. i don't know what will be next. i might find my overalls. and Adidas sandals. i might start wearing shimmery-frosty-blue eyeshadow, wear cucumber-melon body spray and over tweeze my eyebrows. i suddenly want to watch Friends.

my hair isn't really green like that. or yellow on top. just weird lighting. i swear. for serious.
though i have no excuse or explanation for my face in this.

Anyway, as a result of being 17 again, i am listening to a lot of DC Talk today.
here is a personal favorite for your listening enjoyment (Kevin had the same haircut as my 7th grade Science teacher, Ms. Johnson)